This is by far one of the hardest parts about the whole experience, processing how to now move forward. I was so effected by this experience in ways that have hit me most since my most recent trip, ways that I didn't expect. I have guilt that I wrestle with since my second journey. Living in America and spending money with ease, has left me with guilt when I spend money. In addition, if I travel and its not back to Colombia, I have guilt about that. I don't speak to my bio family as much, its hard to find time that works for all of us, and when we do say we will Skype they usually are extremely late or don't show up. Its been difficult. I don't know when my next trip will be, and I don't know how that will pan out when it does happen. For now I have to focus on the positive, I met my biological family, I have a great life here in the States, and I am grateful to have this perspective and the experience.
